I prove God in the audio link below to a room full of atheists:
https://tusnua.eu/justin-april-4th-2023/
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Epilogue: Two Provable Definitions of God
There are two questions that stand out more than any other for me: What answers can I get for my life, and how will those answers lead me to happiness? With the contemplation of these questions, it comes to me that all of my answers start out with the fact that: first, I should scrutinize everything that I interpret with my senses, and second, I should question each one of the conclusions that I come to in my mind over and over.
Each one of my beliefs I take as a rational “choice,” even though “choice” is more of a necessary illusion for each individual to live by. By placing each one of us at the center of our own universe is why this empirical world (Maya) is meant to be our Perfect Teacher. The Law of Karma is Perfect Teacher for each and every Soul; so, one should ask themselves: if they believe in the power of “choice,” why would anyone take any action other than what they think best suits them in that moment? That is the problem with just believing that we all have the power of “choice.” Because the power of “choice” implies that someone would knowing take what we thought was wrong out of the multiple options set in front of them in that very moment. Or are we all just doing the best we can, and none of us seem to really know too much? The problem we all have with our actions is ignorance and understanding, just like Socrates taught. Yet there are truths and fallacies with each conclusion I “choose” to take as a fact, except for: “I Am.” “I Am,” or I exist, is the only true concept that anyone can take as indubitable as I proved in my chapter on psychosis. All I truly have is conjecture except for the fact that “I Exist,” even when I make an absolute statement, it is truly nothing but an inference. Inferences are nothing but an expression of a thought using language. Just like perception and motion and, even words have, have a relative meaning to us all. Especially the word “God!” So, the main point of this argument is that we all use faith weather we acknowledge it or not, and God is provable depending on one’s definition!
Being able to always be wrong, except of the conclusion “I Am,” is why I only speculate about what I interpret with my senses. We can all admit that our senses have quite often led us astray. I showed how all of the rationalistic aspects of all our minds have been led astray because all truths that are subject to any human mind are relative. This shows how relativity is part of all our empirical realities, either for myself, or anyone else. We need to have the perfect objective ideals of striving for, for an absolute empirical truth. Platonic Forms would be a good concept for these absolute truths, because what it gives us is a better understanding of our subjective, or relative, truths if we strive to understand them. Since the mind is relative, our understandings can always be improved upon.
I proved paradoxes in a relative and dual universe to a Dr. of Anthropology I took class from at CCSF. I proved to him that the paradox of Western Science is every answer, just leads to more questions! It never leads to the end of answers! We are nowhere near the Theory of Everything! Or as Stephen Hawkings would call “Knowing the Mind of God,” and just like they predicted in both Ancient Greece and Ancient India, if we answer a question, we just get more questions! Never the end of answers! Our first concepts of both relativity and duality come from Vedic Scripture, which directly influenced the Ancient Greeks. The Doctor I pointed this out too seemed angry, but he gave up on the argument when I brought in quantum physics and how there could even be other universes functioning of other laws as people like Steven Hawkings theorized.
I showed that Dr. of Anthropology a short video on Heisenberg’s Uncertainty Principle in quantum physic, and I said, “if you can mathematically explain how a quantum particle behaves as wave when we look at it indirectly, and as a particle when we look at it directly, in a way that does not contradict itself, and rewrite Richard Feynman’s QED, which is the most accurate of all quantum theories, to 100% accuracy, then you will get all the recognition your crave!”
In QED Feynman explains how around 98.6% of all quantum empirical interactions are: ‘an electron goes from place to place, a photon goes from place to place, and an electron absorbs and admits a photon,’ I told that Doctor: “If you don’t believe in Paradoxes, then do it? It would prove Einstein right and Bohr wrong! You would win the Nobel Prize and be the next Einstein!” He refused to respond after that.
It was Neils Bohr that gave the famous quote “everything we call real is made of things that cannot be taken as real.” He said this because of quantum physics and all the paradoxes with the quantum world. We are 99.9% empty space because of the Pali Exclusion Principle and how electros and protons are constantly pushing each other away with their like repeals like electromagnetism. We are so empty that we have trillions of neutrinos, which is a neutrally charged particle that travels near the speed of light, flying through us constantly with the fusion produced from the sun burning its hydrogen into helium. That is why Bohr, having an understanding of the quantum world, said we are “nothing!” “Nothing” that can be taken as “real!”
No mathematical mind has ever been able to solve Heisenberg’s Uncertainty Principle, which is nothing but a paradox! I am not saying someone won’t solve that theoretical error someday. What I am saying is, is that the skeptics of Ancient Greece and India were right: every answer of this empirical world just leads to more questions! Never to the end of answers! Whenever we get an answer to a paradox, we just eventually get another paradox! If Heisenberg’s Uncertainty principle is solved and can be mathematically explained, without the violation of causality, then we would just get more questions! Not the end of answers! Which is the true paradox of Western Science!
With relativity, it isn’t just about motion and gravity like Einstein theories, but perception and understanding which the Ancient Greeks and Indians wrote about. Duality is expressed in the terms that everything that exists in the empirical world has its opposite. Because there is hot, there is cold. Because there is bitter, there is sweat. Because there is firm, there is soft. Because there is pleasure, there is pain. Then at the most fundamental level, because there is matter, there is antimatter. The philosophers of Ancient Greece and Ancient India had no concept of antimatter, but the fundamentals of what they theorized about relativity and duality hold true to this day, which proves to me that if “Contradiction” is a true law of nature, then the empirical world has to be an illusion, or illusory, like Plato said it was. That is also what the Maya stands for in Sanskrit: illusion.
The Law of Contradiction is a law of empirical science that most Western Sciences go by, and it is a tool Aristotle gave us. The Law of Contradiction states that you can’t have one empirical truth contradicting another. There aren’t paradoxes. We just have a misunderstanding of the situation, but all western science really does is over through one theory for another theory, which is why the paradox of western science is we are always getting more questions with every answer. I take Contradiction as just a necessary too that we use to explore this Infinite Reality God gave us in the physical world. Getting answers from the Maya is what all Souls are here for, and if Contradiction is truly a law, then nothing is “real” just like Bohr said!
Searching for the truth is all my life is about and is not something too many people do in this day and age. Some people, in the most developed country in the history of the world, the United States, think that this planet is only 6000 years old. They believe that their God judges them on the amount of faith that they hold in their hearts. They use computers, see doctors, talk on their cellphones, and yet hold a different concept of “truth” than some of us who do the same thing. I don’t hold to that opinion, but it could be me that is wrong?
I believe in the atom. I have yet to analyze that atom with my naked eye, for that would be impossible, yet I still believe in it. When I talk on my cellphone, I have faith the technology is working, and I can verify that when I meet the person. I have done it so many times that I take each piece of communication for granted. Yet, it is when I make assumptions that I can be led astray. There is no true proof of what is in this empirical world! Any single one of us could be a paranoid schizophrenic stuck in a different reality digging through a trash can in a big city! So, the only thing each experience gives me which is apodictic, is the fact that “I Am!” All I have is conjecture besides the fact that “I Exist!”
Being wrong is nothing that I will ever be free of when it comes to my judgements on this empirical world, and in fact, it is something I have been able to be grateful for. It has been the only way that I have been able to learn – trial and error. I am someone who has found happiness, not from getting everything that I want, but from finding answers. I have found the best answers by looking at myself, deep into my mind daily, and exploring why I do what I do, just like Socrates told us to do. Socrates is credited with coining the term in the West: “Know Thyself.” Socrates told everyone that: “the unexamined life is not worth living.” This is true for me. I need to be able to look at my own motivations and actions; be willing to admit when I don’t know something, and look for the answers, both in myself and the world around. This is some of what we all get from the teachings of Socrates.
One of the gifts of Socrates was that he could acknowledge the truth that came across his path. Socrates got “Know Thyself” from a wall at a temple at Delphi, and it is through examination of what is reflected back at me, that I find my truth as well. I am an epileptic. I was having seizures undiagnosed for five years as a child. My whole family told me I was doing it for attention. This was an experience that definitely made me question my reality. Everyone, even doctors, who didn’t know what they were doing, in the middle of Provo Utah, were telling me that something wasn’t happening, when in fact it was: seizures!
When I was child, the doctor they had me see at Discovery Academy, Dr Christopher, gave me one EEG and told my mother I was doing it for attention because the EEG didn’t show an electrical disturbance in the brain. Well, something I didn’t know, because I was just a kid at the time, was that someone has to be having a seizure at the same time they are having the EEG for it show up as an electrical disturbance in the brain. That is what a seizure is: a surge of electrical energy in the brain. That is all the brain functions off of: electricity. But these doctors in Provo Utah didn’t seem to know that! They were Doctors who didn’t know much about science, which made my life a living hell for years! I was only 15, and that idiot Doctor at Discovery Academy was the one who had the MD! Richard Fynman said quite well, “there is a big difference between education and intelligence. I’ve met plenty of idiots with a PHD.” That school should have been shutdown a long time ago, and I have met several medical doctors over the years who don’t seem to know much of what they are doing.
I am an alcoholic too, and because I am an alcoholic, the only way I have been able to find happiness is by questioning my reality. I am someone who had a bottle of Vodka by the time I was twenty every day for a year straight. I brought the weed and the alcohol to a park and gave it to the kids because I wanted friends. I would get them all drunk and high, then I would start mouthing off to everyone. This would get all the really cool and tough kids to beat me up. The cool kids were the ones I loved to pick on the most! Then I would put on my headphones and hike all over the hill of San Francisco singing as loud as I could. I would usually pass out on the street and wake up strapped down to a gurney in San Francisco General Hospital. Waking up in SFGH is something that would happen to me about three nights a week for the first year I lived in San Francisco.
Sometimes I was also working that same morning. I always woke up miraculously in the ER aby around 7:00 to 8:00 AM, and just say to the nurse, “Let me go!” because I was strapped down to the gurney in five-point restraints!
The nurse would say, “Are you going to come back?”
I’d say, “no!”
But I might be back in the same hospital bed the next night.
That was my drinking, then I ended up doing a lot of drugs on top of that before I got sober, and Speed is not the drug for epilepsy. I did every drug there was too, but it was only questioning my reality and being ablet to say: “I don’t know,” that I was ever able to get sober.
When I got sober, I was having stomach pains. First, the Doctors told me it was Crones, then the Doctors told me it was HIV, but what it turned out to be acid reflux into my small intestine. This shows me, that just like me, Doctors don’t have the answer either because they function off faith too. Their patients have a set of symptoms, they analyze them, then they come up with a theory of treatment. Sometimes that theory works and sometimes it doesn’t. This is proof that all Doctors use faith. All scientists use faith. That is what science is about: falsifiability, not verifiability! Science makes assumptions and measures the consequences of those assumptions. If it is a good theory it holds up to being proven false, if it is a bad theory, it gets overthrown for another theory or they just say: “I don’t know.” Jules Henri Poincare is the one who proved science is about falsifiability which goes very well with the paradox of Western Science: every answer just leads to more questions.
I pointed all throughout this book that I am pro-science and the scientific method by using Contradiction as a tool of the empirical world (Maya), not a Law. So, no one should think that I am against medications or seeing a good doctor who knows what they are doing. Lots do; some don’t! I have an amazing doctor, who I still see at times today: Paul Garcia, who is head of epileptology at UCSF. Dr. Garica was the one who saved my life and told me: “if you don’t quit drinking and using you will have brain surgery or die.” Every time Dr. Garcia did not have an answer for my medical condition, which was quite often he would tell me, “I don’t know.” Dr. Garcia has a waiting list and is head of one of the world-renowned hospitals for epilepsy and neurology.
It was the fear of death that got me into the rooms of recovery, but that fear did not get me to sober. It took another eight years of me trying daily to get sober, and doing every drug there was in the meantime. I would get a couple of days, then go out and do the same thing over again. All of this led me to a quote that I heard others tell me for years. This quote was from Einstein. Einstein said: “Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result.” To me this isn’t necessarily insanity because everyone does this. That is why the whole world loved and related to this quote so much! We all do the same thing over and over all the time, and expect different things to happen because we build our neuropathways and behaviors by doing something that worked for us at one time in our lives. Our neuropathways control our behavior. At our jobs we do the same thing over and over. We get up at the same time every weekday to go to work. We brush our teeth nightly, and all kinds of other things. This is also another reason the power of “choice” is ridiculous if you consider it. Our behaviors that we conduct, and the actions that we take, are about the neuropathways we built based on the experiences of our lives that we develop through repetitious behavior.
Drugs and Alcohol worked for the alcoholic and the addict at one time. These substances no longer do, and they can’t feel happy without the artificial substances boosting the chemicals in their brain. I would do this insane behavior of repetitious drinking and drug abuse just hoping to get some type of relief from the conflict in my mind and soul, but it never came. The noise in my head was so loud that the only solution I could grasp onto was drinking for oblivion! It wasn’t until I had the ability to look for answers, admit what “I do not know,” and questioning myself, as well as my intentions, that I started on the road to happiness. I have also seen this reasoning laid in front of all of us through exploring the great philosophers of the past! It is meant for everyone: “Know Thyself,” and question your reality by telling yourself: “I don’t know,” because we are all wrong all the time and the only thing anyone can know for certain is their Empty Self or in Sanskrit: Sunyam Eva Sarvam – Emptiness is Everything!
There was a pre-Socratic philosopher who explored his mind and soul based on his own intuition: Heraclitus. Heraclitus showed how people need to look into themselves to find peace, and that quest will never be over.
Heraclitus was all about self-examination. To look inward is the only place that one needs to look. Heraclitus became a hermit and isolated himself from everyone so that he could explore the truth in his own thoughts. This was the only way for him to get his answers. For me, it is not about isolation, but about looking at my own actions by exploring my own thoughts: all day and throughout the day. I question and argue everything in my mind throughout the day constantly. It is with this tool that I have been able to dissect each thought that has influenced my behavior. It is through this rigorous analyzing of dilemmas that I have gotten peace of mind.
Solving dilemmas was something another Ancient Greek philosopher, one who Plato gives credit of teaching Socrates the art of the dialectic did as well, was all about: Parmenides. Parmenides is quoted with saying: “There is nothing that is true, that is at some point untrue, nothing absolute that is also relative.” For Parmenides, the Law of Contradiction was the only true truth, which is why Parmenides took the empirical world as an illusion! Logic is linier, and Parmenides functioned off of pure logic! Logic always turns the empirical world upside down! But Parmenides and Heraclitus approached the world from two opposing views. Heraclitus thought that all we have are our senses, and Parmenides thought the physical world of the senses was just an illusion. Parmenides claimed that all we have is the now; therefore, there is no such thing as motion. Heraclitus came up with the Heraclitean Flux, which says the empirical world is in a constant state of change through creation and destruction!
Parmenides believed in the fact of Absolute Being. Absolute Being is the only thing that there is, and Absolute Being cannot be made of anything else, and cannot be a combination of Being and non-Being; therefore, the empirical world of motion is an illusion because anything that is moving is constantly changing, and the only thing that exists is Being, which is Absolute and Immutable; therefore, the empirical world is nothing but our ignorant illusion. This Immutable Being is where Plato got his Forms from.
Zeno, who was a student, and lover, of Parmenides, said: “an arrow in flight is always in the now, in an equal place and motionless.” It was with this philosophical argument that the Eleatic philosophy proved the only thing there is, is Being in this very moment; therefore, there is no such thing as change and motion. When one takes a picture of an arrow in flight it is represented in that moment as perfectly still. All of this has gotten me to ask the question of: “what is?,” and explore the empirical world and its paradoxes that Heraclitus lived by and Parmenides rejected.
Even my existence I take as a paradox, for I questioned that the first time at the age of Fourteen. I struggled even in childhood with the question: is any part even real because if everything is cause and effect what could have ever brought about that first cause?
Aristotle agreed this empirical world is true and noticed it is always in motion. Aristotle needed a justification for that first “cause.” Aristotle tried to justify the first cause as the “Unmoved-Mover,” but that is nothing but a semantical justification through language relativity. Aristotle was justifying qualities of contradiction to an individual. Language relativity is what some scientists do in the modern day when they are suck with quantum physics or other sciences, they just say, “that is the quantum particle’s nature: wave-particle duality; there for quantum physics doesn’t have any paradoxes,” but it is a just paradox some like to justify through semantics by just using the word “nature” just like Aristotle did with “Unmoved-Mover!” It is a semantic justification! Because they have the delusion that Contradiction is a Law of Empiricism! Which if it is, the empirical world would have to be an illusion because it contradicts itself everywhere, and Empiricists reject the Empirical World being an illusion!
Ever since I was a little kid, and my older brother Isaac explained to me that the Earth revolves around the Sun, I have always taken “reality” as truly fascinating. “Reality” has done nothing but encourage me to fantasize. That is one of my earliest memories that I still hold to this day: looking up at the sky, thinking and about the sun and the earth; looking for a reason and a purpose in my existence and how everything works together so well.
Parmenides proves existence with logic, for he says: “of impossibility there could be neither knowledge, for non-being is neither realized nor expressed.” It is this statement that proves my own existence and that of God. How can something come from nothing? God was and always will be. I believe that we are just a part of It. I hold myself to a conscious “choice,” so I “chose” to believe that there is a God that is One. It is made up of all things and leaves nothing out: My relative term for my God is the Heraclitean Logos. This concept is also found in Hinduism as well.
Heraclitus believed in the Logos, and that to find the answers of the Logos one needed to look inwards. Heraclitus says: “you can never in all your goings finds the ends of the soul, though you traveled every path, so deep are its meaning.” Everything is a part of One; so, to find all answers, one needs to look inward. When I can empty my mind completely through Trataka, I do look off into infinity just like Heraclitus says! That Infinite Truth is there for us all!
My perception used to tell me that I was the focus of everyone else’s thoughts. I was judged by every person that came across my path. They all hated me; for that I was going to make sure that each one paid. I was angry and unable to see the cause of my anger. Most people took me as the angriest person they’d ever met; the funny thing was that all I wanted was love, yet I was too scared to trust anyone. It got me to ask myself: If all I want is love and acceptance, then why can’t I treat everyone with love and acceptance? I still struggle and work on this daily, but it is amazing how the answers of each one of all our actions is love.
Just like Ralf Waldo Emerson writes about, love is the greatest teacher, and it is only because of love and acceptance that I have found any happiness. I had many people that were willing to love me until I could love myself. It was through the love of others that I was able to start looking inward and analyzing my own mind which dictated my malevolent actions. For too much of my life all I could do was see what was wrong with everything. That everything started with myself. I was so selfish as to think I was the worst of all people. I had had a traumatic childhood and suffered lots of psychological issues because of it. It was all traumas from other people’s action; I was even diagnosed with PTSD. Today I do believe in cause and effect; it has helped me find a reason for why all people, including myself, do what they do. That answer to why everything is the way it is, is the Law of Karma, or causality, or cause and effect, or Newtons’ Law of Reciprocity. They are all the same thing: for every action there is an opposite and equal reaction, and I reward and punish myself through my own actions. God does not punish in Karma. We punish ourselves, and we either learn, or we continue to suffer. The Theory of Evolution and the Law of Karma tells me the same thing: the only thing that remains constant is change and I either learn or I suffer. I adapt or I die. We are all just here to learn from the consequences of our actions. This concept tells me that most religion is nothing but simple logic and common sense as long as one doesn’t take it literally. That is the problem of fundamentalism. They take the literal interpretation of their scriptures. Fundamentalism is about ignorance and claiming certainty when there is none in this empirical world (Maya)!
Because I have my reasons for why the things are the way they are, I have the reason other people do what they do too, when I have their reason, I have understanding for them. When I have understanding for them, I can forgive them and be free of the burdensome hatred. I can be free of hate especially when I can pause. Pausing is a gift I only got from meditation, and when I am free of this hatred, there is nothing left for me but the opposite: peace. To me peace is synonymous with happiness. When I have a clear and peaceful mind it is because I have learned the secrets to abating the conflict between my ears, for that is where all my difficulties lie. Peace is something I struggled with my whole life, especially in the moment, but when I can pause and reflect, which I do every day in silent meditation, I can find this solution to my behavior and unhappiness.
There is another valuable lesson that has brought me peace, and it has been whispered from Heraclitus as well. Heraclitus said: “You can never dip in the same river twice.” To me this is a valuable lesson, for it tells me that things are always changing. This is synonymous with Law of Karma. Everything is constantly changing. The water is always flowing down stream. The river is never the same moment to moment because it is different water molecules constantly deviating the landscape in different ways; in fact, everything is in a constant state of change: creation and destruction. As I stated, Heraclitus and Parmenides approached reality from the exact opposite way, but it was this quote that has taught me that I either change with things, or I repeat my behavior over and suffer.
With Heraclitus, the empirical universe is in a constant state of creation and destruction: That Heraclitean Flux, which I see in everything! It is with the Big Bang and the Big Crunch! It is with the stars and super nova explosions that destroy stars and create solar systems like ours! Our sun is a secondary star created from an explosion of a much larger star! Outer space itself is a vacuum where quantum particles like a proton and an anti-proton are constantly coming out of nothing, swinging around each other, then coming back together and alienating back into nothing! It is here on earth with the four seasons. We are born, we get old, and we die. I saw a picture of a pregnant lady on a stretcher in the war zone in Ukraine, so there is creation and destruction within creation and destruction! She had a baby she was creating in her belly but was being destroyed at the same time herself! Everything in the empirical world is temporary because of the Flux: creation and destruction! I see this as a law of science!
I was walking by a bar onetime, and I heard a lady say she was a scientist to a group of people.
I stopped, turned around, and butted in to ask, “A Scientist? Of what?”
She responded, “Aging.” In a pompous arrogant way.
That is when I looked directly into her eyes and asked, “You mean that ten our every eleven cells in our bodies are nothing but bacteria?”
She responded, “Yeah!” in a very excited voice because she couldn’t believe anyone would know anything about it.
“And almost every cell in our bodies is replaced every seven years?”
She was shocked, “Yeah?!?”
That is when I point directly at her, staring right into her eyes and shouted, “Have you ever thought of asking who or what you truly are?!?”
Everyone in the whole group outside the bar busted up into laughter! Half started to walk into the bar shaking their heads, and she was giving a nervous laugh as she started to walk towards the street away from the crowd.
As they were all breaking up, I shouted a quote from a Vedantin, Nisargadatta Maharaj, that I made sure they could all hear, especially her, “The body is made of food! The mind is made of thought! See them as they are! Non-identity when natural and spontaneous is liberation! You need not know what you are! Enough to know what you are not! What you are you will never know, for every realization gives new dimensions to conquer!” I did all this following her just shaking my finger at her, but I forgot the most important line: “The unknown has no limits!”
I freaked them all out by questioning their reality! Even that scientist who, I guess, never gave much of a thought to who or what she truly was! She was so freaked out she hopped in the Porsche and sped away as fast as she could! So, I guess the Doctor’s answer to that question was: No! Our bodies are in this constant state of creation and destruction as well! With almost every cell being replaced by another cell our genes are constantly mutating throughout our lives! We are mostly bacteria, but we all claim that our bodies and our minds are one. We are constantly being recreated and destroyed!
I take my True Self as nothing but that Pure Consciousness that it talks about in the Vedas. It is this Pure Consciousness that I was trying to get the scientist to acknowledge what she was! She definitely did not look any younger than fifty to me! Yet, most of the cells in all our bodies is dying over and over, and we take ourselves as these bodies, which these ancient scriptures the Vedas points out we are not!
I am forty-seven now, and that means that almost every cell in my heart has died and been replace about 6.713285 times. Yet, if my heart dies, I die? Why do I take my thumb as my thumb? It has been replaced over and over and over!
Finding out what I truly am and looking within is what has gotten me to practice Vedanta today. Vedanta is a modern-day Neoplatonism, and Plato got all his inspiration from the pre-Socratics like Heraclitus and Parmenides. Vedanta is what Nisargadatta Maharaj is said to have practiced. Nisargadatta Maharaj was a modern-day Budda in the Himalayas. All the different forms of Hinduism I have explored go very well with modern science too, just like Neoplatonism does, and what I have come to believe is that religion and science are only mutually exclusive if someone is a fundamentalist.
To me, such concepts as Original Sin are nothing but a logical argument. The Book of Genesis, is not saying we are all inbreed descendants from two people, and the only reason anyone has dark skin is because they are offsprings of Cain. I heard an African American male make that argument in that Biological Anthropology course I took at CCSF. Nothing made me more uncomfortable than hearing an African American, in the year 2016, say, “the only reason anyone he has dark sink is because Cain killed his broth Able.” I was in shock, just like everyone else in the class! The teacher just politely changed the topic. I think even the professor knew he wouldn’t win that one! That boy didn’t stay long in that class anyways!
Original Sin, to me,just means we ate the fruit from the Tree of Knowledge. It does not mean there was truly a piece of fruit with a tree. It is an allegory. It is a parable. So, why did we eat the this “forbidden fruit?” Because fruit tastes good. It is sweet. Just like knowledge feels good, and all life is controlled by its desires. That is why Adam ate it after Eve because he had desire for Eve too! Just like Adam had a lust for Eve because that feels good! So, the argument of the “Garden of Eden” and the “forbidden Fruit” is just saying we rose from nature, and what separates us from nature, and causes every problem nature does not have is our intellect. It is nothing but a simple logical argument. Heraclitus made the same argument when he said the nature of man is evil because we can rationalize.
Original Sinis both a blessing and a curse. We create machines like cars and drive them. Discover lifesaving medications and treatments to live longer just out thinking natural selection. Fly to outer space and land on the moon, but our intellect also is what has caused things like global warming and nuclear weapons! The concept of money is nothing but a rational piece of imagination we all agree on that we all lust over and fight over. It is just a piece of paper, yet we use it for the exchange of goods and services for no other reason than we all want too.
I think Original Sin goes very well with a scientific theory called Fermi’s Paradox. Fermi’s Paradox is a scientific theory that the reason we have never been contacted by alien life is that all intelligent life ends up destroying itself through the changing of their atmosphere with fossil fuels. This is Global Warming. Animals can’t do any of this, so they don’t have the consequences we have because of our intellect. Intelligence is both a blessing and a curse because it causes us so many joys and conflicts. So, the Bible makes sense when we take it as an allegory, but when we take the Bible literally, it is ridiculous! We would all be inbred from two people, which I have had fundamentalist tell me that we all are!
Heraclitus also believed that fire was the monad: the quantum particle which makes up all everything. This is quite synonymous with modern science and an Einsteinian universe where everything is made out of energy, because all fire is, is the release of energy through the rearranging of electrons. Heraclitus could tell everything was just this “energy,” just like Einstein proved in the Special Theory of Relativity because of the constant flux of the universe, and in Chapter VI Verse 41 in the Hindu Scripture: The Essence of Yogavasistha it shows how everything is made of energy too: “It is the energy of Consciousness in his bodies (physical, mental, ect), as well as the motionless (or potential) energy in a stone. It is also the energy of vibration in the winds and the energy of motion in the waters.” This is a Hindu scripture that goes every well with the special theory of E=MC2! Everything is nothing but energy! Even in these ancient scriptures, this energy rises from nothing but Consciousness, which goes extremely well in justifying how all quantum particles behave differently depending on just how they are observed! How else would a quantum particle know how to behave differently, unless it is conscious that it is being observed? Or something like Ghost Action, which is an instantaneous signal moving faster than the speed of light shifting the position of one quantum particle to another, just violating special relativity. How else could the movement of one quantum particle instantaneously affect another quantum particle on the other side of the universe without everything being interconnected through Consciousness?
Everything being nothing but this Loving Power of Consciousness also goes very well with who and what we all truly are! “The True Self Itself is that Pure Consciousness. That which nothing can be known in any way, and the same True Self Pure Consciousness is not different form the Ultimate Principal Brahman. Brahman is the only reality, since it is untinged by difference, the mark of ignorance, and the one thing that cannot be improved upon” Rgveda. To realize that everything is nothing but this Pure Loving Energy of Consciousness, is the awakening I am striving for, and we should all strive for! We are all just a projection within this Consciousness! Within this Cosmic Mind, or Nous, as Anaxagoras said who was another pre-Socratic philosopher.
This Pure Loving Consciousness is something that goes very well with the concepts of a non-dual because, as it stated in that quote from the Rgveda:“of which nothing can be known in anyway,” for as I pointed out everything has it opposite that can be detected with our senses. Well, modern science still can’t even prove what makes us conscious. This Consciousness is not detectable! Yet, we all have our experiences that validates this one apodictic quality: “Existence through Consciousness!” I have gotten to this state a couple times in deep meditation when I can drop my body and mind and just focus on that Being, that Empty Nothingness, which is all there truly is: Sunyam Sarvam! That Absolute Being is an experience I stive for daily. Not being my body or my mind, but just Consciousness! It is an experience I believe we can all get to with enough dedication and practice. That practice is shown to us in Chapter 6 of the Bhagavad-Gita through Trataka.
So, which one was right, Parmenides or Heraclitus? Is everything perfect Being, and this empirical world is just an image, or is this universe in a constant state of change and the only thing we have is our senses? Heraclitus believed in these paradoxes. Heraclitus thought “knowledge only defines what is not” like Plato writes in the end of the Theaetetus. There is a paradox in everything!
Even Socrates thought both Heraclitus and Parmenides had truth, for he looked into himself to find his answers, and explored the truth with the dialectic from Parmenides. I think both solutions are right as well, for the contradiction of truth is not just in Being and motion but in all physical phenomena. I love the ending of Plato’s Parmenides the most, and it is how I live my life, for it points out how there is an a-symmetry between contradiction and paradoxes when it comes to the empirical world. Because the empirical world is always in this Flux which is “illusory.” Not a complete illusion, but this empirical illusory world is this where the solutions to my insanities have been solved, when I respond to the pain of my consequences. It is in this empirical world that I relate all modern scientific theory to mysticism and find the answers to what I truly need through reflection: “Kown Thyself.”
One empiricist who truly believed in God was Einstein. Einstein rejected his own theory that he won the Nobel Prize for because he did not like paradoxes, and it violated his concept of God. Quantum gravity is a paradox, and everyone took Einstein as even crazy for trying to solve! We cannot even explain how matter came together after the Big Bang, or even after a supernova star explosion, because the electromagnetic effect and gravity work in opposite directions. The gravity is 1/1040 weaker than the electromagnetic effect! Gravity does not exist on a quantum level, so nothing should have ever come together in the first place using contradiction!
Another paradox with gravity is if gravity is such a universal force, then why are the galaxies not only expanding, but at an accelerated rate? The farther the galaxy is away from us, the faster it is moving away. This is shown to us by measuring the wavelength of light from the different galaxies. Gravity should be slowing everything down, not increasing an expansion faster than the speed of light, which is what seems to be happening. This also violates the Special Theory and General Theories of Relativity because matter can’t travel the speed of light according to Einstein.
This expansion of our space at an accelerated rate is called Dark Energy, and according to Einstein the speed of light remains constant at 299,792,485 meters a second. That speed cannot very according to Einstein. The only thing that changes with light is the wavelength. If a star is moving closer to us, or a galaxy, or even someone running towards me with a flashlight, the wavelength will shorten, but the speed the photons travel at remain constant. If the object is moving away from us, then the wavelength will get longer. Light is unlike any other object and is what makes the speed of light the only universal measuring sick we have that we can use across the whole universe according to Einstein! But our universe is expanding at an accelerated rate! Which we currently cannot explain with any true proof! There are some new theories, but they can’t be proven.
We also need Dark Matter to keep all out galaxies rotating at the speeds they are using Einstein’s General Theory of Relativity. Dark Matter means the visible universe is only 4% of the matter that is in the universe! Dark Matter has not been proven yet. Dark Matter was gaining some steam for a while, but the opinions on it seem to be turning around! They are all just theories and assumptions to justify and explain empirical phenomena that we have no explanation for! We are all just searching to find things to believe in. We just want to be able to say that we can take things as “true.” I have found lots of doctors in philosophy and other sciences who do this too because not too many of us like to realize how uncertain this empirical world is! We all want things to believe in! Just like the fundamentalists, the Doctors want the impossible too: certainty in an uncertain world, and we all use some form of worship! Some just worship science!
Think of how many people believe in the atom without understanding the math or principles behind it. Most people don’t know what the Pauli Exclusion Principle is, or how there are different flavors of quarks and different masses of leptons. I am familiar with those terms, yet I don’t understand the mathematics behind all of them. That doesn’t stop me from believing in the atom. Because I take God as everything it has shown me that science and religion have three things in common: They both give me a reason, they both give me an explanation, and they both require faith! All those theories I mentioned above require faith!
All modern science stems from one place: Ancient Greek Mythology. Sure, taken literally it is quite crazy too, but there are lots of truths in all religions. Even Ancient Greek Mythology. Each Greek God was nothing but an empirical phenomenon of this universe and is just meant to explain things! They all had their exaggerated human character defects that caused all kinds of troubles as well, but they were allegories and parables just like any scripture, which means they were just like the Bible. The pre-Socratic philosophers got their inspiration from the poets, and modern science stems from Ancient Greek Philosophy, and we are all just looking for the same thing in this life. We all want a reason, explanation, and purpose for being here. We all use faith to achieve explanations if we are using science be us an atheist or a dogmatist! We all use faith!
Modern science is always making assumptions in order to come up with new theories to explain phenomena just like Dark Energy and Dark Matter. Einstein made the assumption that the speed of light remains constant for all observers. It is impossible assumption to prove that the speed of light remains constant. We would need to trace a photon of light from one end or our 93 billing observable light year universe to other and make sure that it never varied in speed in any way! That is an obvious test that cannot be performed!
It is also impossible to prove that time stops at infinite density of a black hole! No one can measure the center of a black hole! If you got sucked down, you wouldn’t survive an infinite density! The amazing thing about Einstein is he proved it all with his mind! So, Einstein used faith too! But it was that specific assumption that allowed for the best theory we have of gravity and motion that still holds to this day: The Special and General Theories of Relativity, and that assumption that the speed of light remains constant is nothing but an article of faith because it is impossible to prove!
One way to explain Dark Energy and the accelerated expansion of the universe I read once was that the speed of light doesn’t remain constant, but light loses energy over extremely long distances. Like billions and billions of lightyears. I was wondering if this could be the key to Einstein uniting the General Theory of Relativity with the electromagnetic effect? How do we know light isn’t retarded over long distances and is that not the problem with quantum gravity? Isn’t there too much energy for it to come together like I stated above? Or now do we know quantum particles don’t behave differently with gravity through direct and indirect observation, just like the electromagnetic effect? This would turn both Theories of Relativity on their heads!
My point is none of us truly know! All we have is speculation when it comes to the empirical world (Maya), and life requires faith whether you believe in God or not. I don’t deny the empirical world completely because my mind only develops by interacting with it, but Modern Science is always wrong! Especially when the scientist doesn’t acknowledge paradoxes! What Einstein should have acknowledged is that if motion is relative like he proved, and motion being relative means that perspective is always relative, along with an individual truth of the human mind, then, once again including duality: that everything existing having its opposites; therefore, all this means is that paradoxes are everywhere! These paradoxes and questions being everywhere shows me this life is always about learning, and learning is always about constantly admitting the mistakes in our beliefs so we can always get to better answers, which is what modern science is all about! Overthrowing one theory for another theory!
It is important to acknowledge that even when I take an experience as an empirical fact, I am still using faith. I have had times in my life where I saw and heard things that were not there. I have even talked to things that I now know weren’t there. This is why I have had reasons to doubt, not just my senses, but my sanity and rational mind as well. As I said it is not doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result, but when I cannot question my sanity, or the conclusions my mind comes to, is where my insanity lies, and looking throughout world history and even the current news it seems to me that is the cause of the insanity of the rest of the world too! We all need to be able to question ourselves!
Not too many of us like to admit we are wrong, but with this doubt I have had the clarity to see that I need faith, and we all use faith. Faith has shown me what to take as a subjective reality: Faith and my innate perception, for that is all anyone has besides existence. Most people have a hard time questioning themselves. I have also seen for myself that it is the really crazy people that can’t question their own sanity as I pointed out in my chapter on Schizophrenia, and most “sane” people I have talked to have no ability to question their “sanity” or even the conclusions they come to; so, does this mean that most people aren’t any different than a lunatic because we all believe things that are not true and neither can question their sanity? So, what truly is the difference between a false belief and a delusion? Especially if someone has no ability to question themselves?
There is someone I know who struggled with sobriety for years. It was impossible for him to acknowledge that there was even such a thing as faith. He was someone who was raised by Jehovah’s Witnesses, and it made him hate everything about religion, and he refuses to see any truth in the aspects of God. He even told me Einstein’s theories were laws.
I pointed out to this man that Einstein spent the second half of his life trying to reconcile the Electromagnetic Effect and General Relativity and he couldn’t. Gravity is a paradox on a quantum level, and everyone took Einstein as even crazy for trying to reconcile it. It was Wolfgang Pauli told Eistein at a global level, “That is a solution that is better left up to God!”
This guy believed in the greatness of Einstein, who was truly great! Yet, he refuses to acknowledge the fact that he was using faith constantly! He couldn’t even do a geometrical tensor, which is necessary to understand the General Theory of Relativity, yet he calls Einstein’s theories laws. That was also why this ex-Jehovah’s Witness called it a law because he didn’t understand it! It was nothing but faith for him too! Yet, he refuses to acknowledge the word faith!
I had the same problem that man had for years. I was surrounded by fundamentalists at Discovery Academy in Provo Utah, who all thought they were doing the right thing, yet they were just making my life a living hell. I had been sent to that school Discovery Academy because I was abused and flipped out because of that abuse. Their fundamentalist beliefs just made me a million times worse than I already was, and every kid I have talked to from the place all told me the same thing! That is what the survivor communities are online. Adults that got locked up as children in detentionary boarding schools in places like Utah. Discovery Academy only made them much, much worse!
Those kids at Discovery Academy all also told me that the Doctor had them on all the wrong medications with the wrong diagnoses too when I talked to them years later! It was not just me! So, I understood what this ex-Jehovah’s Witness was going through. Discovery Academy just made me hate God more than anything because none of us kids who were locked up there were Mormon except one. We were all being abused with isolation and bad medical treatment, and they would not stop trying to convert all of us to their religious beliefs at the same time. We all hated anything to do with that Church except one student who converted. His last name was Jones, so we all called him Jesus Jones!
But, if that guy who was raised by the Jehovah’s Witnesses understood anything about Einstein, all Einstein’s theories would still be theories that needs to be proven false and overthrown for better theories! Just like all other theories! His faith is in science, just like the assumption that Einstein made about the speed of light being constant! Science using faith was something my first philosophy professor William Graves taught me.
That ex-Jehovah’s Witness, who couldn’t stay sober, was sure he had all the answers, and I would say to him if he truly did, he’d be both happy and sober. He died from fentanyl. He had no ability to admit he did not have the answers, yet he was always asking for help. He was just as narrow-minded as the people who he condemned. Just like I was, and just like so many of us are. It is what drove me so nuts during my whole drug and alcohol abuse too! I could not admit I did not have the answers, and I could barely read at the time too!
When it comes to truth of the empirical world, all I have is conjecture. As long as I have an open mind, then I can find answers. When I first defined God, I called it: “Everything I Did Not Know and Did Not Understand.” This way I could learn. I just proved above, none of us know anything that is apodictic except “I Am.” Those words: “I Don’t Know” has turned into everything including myself. “I Don’t Know” are the only words that are able to honestly answer every question that is presented in front of each one of us except “I Am.” I take “I Don’t Know” as a provable definition of God because God has all the answer and “I Don’t Know” can honestly answer every equation except “I Am.” Being able to answer every question is something only God can do. I met a professor who had a PhD in theology who said my definition was very Socratic.
My life is all about admitting when I do not know just as Socrates taught: “The only thing I know, is I know nothing.” The whole point is none of us know much in this world of relativity and duality because of paradox after paradox after paradox! If I want this empirical world (Maya) to be perfect, I just need to acknowledge it is nothing but my perfect teacher! I need absolute acceptance that everything is the way it is meant to be through the Law of Karma: causality. I need this absolute radical acceptance that I am here just to change for the better! It does not matter what anyone else does! I am still working on this idea to this day because that is all it is for me! A perfect ideal, just like all dogma that is not taken literally! I need to change to adapt to it, or I suffer. I believe this is the essence of all our plights that each of us are in the center of in my metaphysical theory!
To me it is in the lessons of life that we all can find happiness, and that is why discord is a necessity. It is the pain of our consequences, and learning from that pain, that will lead us all to happiness. That pain has taught me a provable definition of God, the words “I Don’t Know,” but if you want awareness without being beaten into it, then sit in silence and meditate.
I have found the best way in my chapter on ADHD, and it is the cornerstone of my psychiatric health. Remember, awareness is the greatest virtue because the recognition of a problem is the first step in anything. Without awareness nothing changes for the better, and you can either be beaten into it, or seek it on a daily basis through silent meditation. Someone told me once that “I pray for a lower tolerance of pain because that is the only reason I change for the better.” I still use that as my guiding prayer to this day. Responding gently to my consequences instead of suffering.
So, it is important to note that God is provable depending on how you define it! This is what got me into jnana yoga. The God of the Rgveda is also a provable definition of God! It is nothing but A Loving Consciousness, and every experience I have validates one thing over and over no matter what those experiences are: I am a Conscious Being! All of your experiences validate that you are conscious. What those experiences truly are, are all subject to doubt, but each and every single one of them proves existence through Consciousness! All these experiences are just projections in the Cosmic Mind. These projections validate one thing: Consciousness. As Nisargadatta Maharaj says in the book I Am That,“as every taste of salt pervades the great ocean, and every drop of seawater carries the same flavor, so every experience gives me the touch of reality. The ever-fresh realization of my own being.” God is nothing but A Loving Consciousness in the Vedic Scriptures! Our Egos are just His dreams!
If one sits in silence and focuses just on the words “I am,” they can get to the point where they can slowly stop thinking, and when you are able to drop your mind completely, you can experience the perfection within you, which is Simple, Immutable, Perfect, and Complete. That Sat-Chit-Ananda, which is Sanskrit for Being, Consciousness, Bliss. Besides those descriptions God is Ineffable. It is ineffable because it is non-dual. It is something they say that can only be experienced through the thinning of the mind which is laid out in ancient scriptures.
But is there a God? And does this life have any mean? These are questions, like Parmenides said, are truly only answered in one place: “everyone runs away from death; therefore, they run away from the truth.” It is only in death that I truly find out if this life means anything or not. If I die and I exist, then there is a reason and a purpose to this existence. If I die and I don’t, then that is my answer, but as of now having a provable definition of God, that is Socratic and scientific, which has led to a happy life, has been a wonderful purpose to my life.
I am someone who has tried killing myself more times than I can count, and today because of my belief system, I am a very happy person who is seeking answers. I am also extremely stable and employable, which I was not at one time in my life. I have been on almost every psych medication in the PDR at one time and I have meditated my way of lots of them. Today I unite science and religion to be able to succeed in my life. I have found happiness, not by getting everything I want, but by looking within myself today to find answers, and by finding those answers I have found God!
Remember God is just a word, and language is relative as well. The same words mean different things to different people. Some people take God as a white male in the sky with a long white beard. I don’t hold to that literal interpretation, for that interpretation is more making God in our image, not God making us in Its. That definition just leads to conflict and insanity. In this essay, I prove God in two ways: “I don’t know” and “Consciousness.”
“Consciousness” is how all the mystics of all religions define God. It is in the Jewish scripture of the Kabbala. Ibn al-Arabi defined God this way with Sufi Mysticism, which is nothing but a combination of Hinduism and Islamic beliefs. Something lot of modern-day Buddhists refuse to acknowledge is the Buddha was nothing but a Hindu. All this concepts such and pleasure and pain, selfish desires being the main cause of all the suffering, and Atman and Brahman are all Vedic concepts that come out of the Vedas. The Buddhists and the Hindus are talking about the same thing. One calls it God. The other says it is everything and all powerful but refuses to use the word God, because on the topic of God, the Buddha remained silent, but the Buddha was not a nihilist. When someone mentioned the term God, the Buddha just didn’t say anything, yet they are both, Hinduism and Buddhism, talking about the same thing: Consciousness. Using different words to define the same thing differently is nothing but language relativity. One says it is all powerful but there is no such thing as God, and the other says it is all powerful calls it God.
There is a spiritual question that I realized I needed to ask myself: If God is everything, and everything is Consciousness, then why is it that I am always wanting more if every experience validates one thing: that I am a conscious being; therefore, a part of God. That should give me enough to be grateful for anything in my life! This Sat-Chit-Ananda is there for anyone to experience, and every experience validates it! Just be willing to learn and question everything! Look for your certainty in only one thing: I Am, or I Am Nothing. Not nothing as in nothing, but Nothing as neither this body of this mind. Nothing as in no thing: Sunyam Sarvam. Just that Non-Dual Consciousness! Don’t look for a literal interpretation of a scripture because that is nothing but fear! Fundamentalism is about the impossible: certainty in an uncertain world! So just be willing to say, “I Don’t know,” and acknowledge only one thing that validates everything: A Loving Consciousness! This is the only thing that has led to my stability and happiness! The Consciousness within us all! I am still searching because I am not truly “Awake” yet!
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